Friday, October 23, 2009

one year.
my dad died one year ago today.
my only dad.
I'm trying not to think
of how much pain he was in,
of how little we talked
in the year before he died,
of all the drama and disrespect
that went on in the last week of his life,
perpetrated by his own family, no less.
I'm thinking of the things I learned from him
and the good times we had together.
Like camping.
My dad had everything
you could ever imagine you'd need.
We lived like kings
(only in tents).
His love of music.
Singing Joe Cocker, Ray Charles
and Creedence as he took me
to high school in the morning.
His cooking
and his gardening.
what I wouldn't do
for a tomato from his garden
or his pickled green beans.
Or how
when I was a very little girl,
he would run his fingers through my hair
and put me right to sleep.
How he thought I was so
smart and funny and beautiful
and a much greater person
than I'll ever be.
And what I almost forgot
in those last few years:
how much he loved me.


Blogger patrice stanford said...

beautiful tribute. You are loved. I am sorry that you are so sad today.

10/24/2009 11:56 AM  
Blogger amynjosh said...

Just perfect; couldn't have said it better myself. love you so my sweet, sweet sister

10/24/2009 2:17 PM  
Anonymous Kelly said...

I love you and have been thinking of you. xoxoxo

10/24/2009 5:36 PM  
Anonymous Mom said...

That is very beautiful. Love Mom

10/24/2009 6:21 PM  
Blogger Mary said...

You are so sweet and your thoughts are just perfect. I'm thinking of you and missing all of you.

10/24/2009 9:46 PM  
Blogger MJD said...

I loved your father as my own. He was so welcoming to me as my own family crumbled so many years ago. I appreciate how you are choosing to focus on the good. I love you.

10/26/2009 11:06 AM  
Blogger Auntie Di said...

Your only only little brother...your words are lovely and very comforting to me...UB and I were just talking this am about the drama by "extended" members of his family. We will try not to think about that...

10/26/2009 12:32 PM  
Blogger Auntie Ann said...

Thank you for sharing this...I hope you are doing well. I cant wait to meet these little misters.

10/27/2009 9:27 AM  

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