"reading"

So I'm a little moody lately.

Under normal circumstances, I may have a little OCD. I just might be a bit of a control freak. I just might break down a bit when I have to stray from my plan. And sometimes I've been known to clean the tracks of my windows out with Q tips. Right now I'm paying someone to clean my house, only I don't know that it's really clean because I didn't bleach it myself.

But right now I'm on bed rest. I'm hoping to have these boys in 12 weeks (I can't say that in months, too painful) and no earlier, not only for their health's sake but because I don't have a THING ready for them. I'm camped out in the guest room, which is going to be their room, but right now it's full of my stuff as well as everything else that has no home.

I'm only a few pounds away from my Marlo delivery weight. I've got back pain and ligament pain and contractions. I can't find a position that's comfortable for more than 15 minutes at a time.

I can't bend. Did you know that if you're given doctor's orders not to bend, the likelihood that you drop something increases by 100%? So when I reach for my lip balm and instead knock it to the floor, I could just snap. It may be tears or it may be fury. It's totally unpredictable.

I know that this will pass. I know that having two little boys is a tremendous blessing. I know that rather than try to control my surroundings, I need to control myself.

But to the next person who tells me, "Once you have those boys, you'll be wishing you could get back in that bed." ....

COME CLOSER SO I CAN POKE YOUR EYES OUT.

soo happy

"This is the best birthday party ever,"

Marlo said over and over again.

Happy 3rd Birthday Marlo!

Say it isn't so

The lovely Bea Arthur, queen of comedic timing and eccentric outfits, passed away today. She was the bomb.

Jack Sprat could eat no fat....

Did you ever think I would dwarf my 6-foot-5, 220-pound husband? My family looks a little afraid that maybe I just might eat them.
And Mark has quit cutting his hair. It's growing into a lovely version of the Karate Kid.
I just like this photo because Marlo was so cute when we were taking it. Her preschool teachers came over last week and they gave her a little photo frame to decorate and took this to put in it and have at school. She was so excited to have her teachers here and to show them around.

They're at Disneyland today with Walker. This morning when she barged into my room with her mee smushed up in her face and said, "Good morning Mommy, buenos dias" I asked if she was ready to go to Disneyland and she said, "Yeah, but let's wait for Uncle Walker."

I guess she's ready....

So this morning Marlo requested "arts and crafts". I cut out some shapes for her and left her with her markers and glue stick. When I came back she had made herself a little Mickey Mouse.

She starts preschool tomorrow. I wanted to start her earlier but there have been so many changes we had to put it off for awhile. I think she will absolutely love it.

I am probably going to bawl my eyes out all night not only because she's growing up, but because I can't go tomorrow to drop her off. I know that she'll be fine, and it won't make a difference to her. But it makes a difference to me.

Tiny dancers

My friend Kendra and her daughter Ava are here for two days to take care of us. The girls are having so much fun together.

There's no dignity left

that's what a nurse in triage told me recently while holding up a speculum. So right.

I don't know why I'm posting this. Well I'm 24 weeks today, so I'm happy about that. And I should document this to show the boys later. Waaaayy later.

love this girl so much

I can't even tell you how happy she makes me. Even though someone put red socks on her to take her out in public.

23 week ultrasound

Because I go to the doctor every 2 weeks or so, we have lots of ultrasounds, but not many of the boys together. This one is from this part Thursday, of twin A's head and twin B's foot. At the time A was head down, but they move around a lot.
Then the tech switched to 4D mode on the ultrasound. I had never really thought about getting one of those but she just did it for fun. It was just like a watching a boxing match in slow motion...A was getting pummeled by his brother. So cute to see their little baby faces though!
Those didn't scan so well so maybe I will try again and post them. I have another one of the two of them together. B has his butt on A's head, but it shows a lot of weenis and I'm not quite comfortable putting that on the world wide web.

And yes, I call them A and B, for lack of better terms....boy names are hard!

Hooray for insurance

Got our bill for my surgery and 10 day hospital stay. We only had to pay the $250 deductible.

Any guesses for the amount billed to our insurance?

How about a little over $64,000?

She has her moments

Marlo has been through a lot of changes since I had to go into the hospital. She'd been pushing her nap time and bed time, and we lost some ground potty-training. We've just had to be strict with her (and those taking care of her) to keep her on a schedule so that she can be ready for preschool next week.

Although she misses her friends, she loves being with all the family that's been helping out. On Sunday when Mark took her to pick up his dad at the airport she said, "Look! There's a sign for the airport! It says Don't go, we love you! Don't go, because we love you so much!'"